Joy and Pain Part III

*DISCLAIMER* I am still quite ill and haven’t gain full vision yet, so please excuse the typos in the posts that may be posted for a while. Thank you all very much 🙂

trust and believe
trust and believe

Well with my illness I’m on about 8 different meds.  These meds are something powerful!



loss of appetite.

hair texture change

hair loss.

crazy dreams.

Now the first three don’t bother me.

The “loss of appetite” is ok with me as well, because I need to lose some weight for my brother’s wedding in June.  lol

The hair texture change and hair loss is an issue…  I have natural hair (meaning that there are no chemicals in my hair).  My hair has gone from nice loose curls to tighter curls. There are places that my hair has come out by the roots and hair the edges of my hair line is coming out as well.

My hair is not easy to comb through right now.

I want to cut all my hair off and go back bald, BUT my Mummie and my SO (significant other) is saying no! So braiding it up and/or locing my hair again is my next option.

Now the last…crazy dreams

For the last three weeks my dreams have been crazy, funny, and who knows what!

I’ve also been talking in my sleep.  I do this from time to time, but now it’s ALL the time!

Out of all the dreams I had a dream that I’ve only had about 3 times in my life.  These dreams involve my teeth falling out. Now I know that sounds kind our weird, but…

For me these dreams represent the removal of people or things from my life…again this may seem weird to others, but they have been true.

During this illness I did have this dream.  A row of teeth fell out, no pain.  At the same time people and other things started removing themselves from my life…I wasn’t hurt about it.

Durning all of this I know that the Lord is keeping me.  My life is in utter turmoil at the present moment, but I’m not worried.  I have done what I can and I have left the rest in His hands…I KNOW it’s safe and protected.

I’ve had three different people to tell me: The Lord is with you through everything. You’re going to your next level. You’re strong and the world’s gonna change through Christ and you.

Those are POWERFUL words and I receive and believe it!

So as the pic above states: “If God brings you to it; He will bring you through it!” <—- I’m trusting and believing!

~Love, Peace, and SOOOOOUL!!!

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This is a place for me to reflect on things that are happening in my life.  I might just be one person in this big world of ours, but I'm one person that's on a mission... Life:: the sequence of physical and mental experiences that make up the existence of an individual. Life is a funny thing.  It is forever changing and as it changes so will I.

4 thoughts on “Joy and Pain Part III

  1. Girl talking about crazy dreams. I remember while going through chemo and taking pain meds after surgery I had this dream about a jazz band. They were playing music like out of this world, it was so good, I was rocking to that music in my sleep. My head was bump, bump, bumping on my pillow to the beats. It was that good. I’ve had others. But I know they are just reflections of the meds.

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