This morning I woke up and realized that I was at peace. I have a peace that I had NEVER had ever before in my life. As I lay on my back I started to laugh…then tears slowly began to
run down my face (as they are doing now…lol).
I am BLESSED! No, for real I am truly blessed.
You know for years I made and had a list of things that I wanted from the Lord. Up until now it felt like the Lord had forsaken me, but how dare I tell my Daddy that! But I did…I complained to Him, I pleaded with Him, I laid prostrate in my livingroom begging Him to hear my voice. But nothing.
I felt like a Matthew 7: 21 – 23 person…
Matthew 7:21-23 – The Message (MSG)
21-23“Knowing the correct password—saying ‘Master, Master,’ for instance— isn’t going to get you anywhere with me. What is required is serious obedience—doing what my Father wills. I can see it now—at the Final Judgment thousands strutting up to me and saying, ‘Master, we preached the Message, we bashed the demons, our God-sponsored projects had everyone talking.’ And do you know what I am going to say? ‘You missed the boat. All you did was use me to make yourselves important. You don’t impress me one bit. You’re out of here.’
I was telling the Lord how I had done soooooo much in His name and complaining about why He was NOT doing His part. But,I now know where I have been messing up! I was telling Daddy all my plans. When I FINALLY and TRULY let go…he whispered to me clear as day “Marla, see I’m giving you everything.” All I can do is to cry, laugh, and rejoice!
“As sooon as I stop worrying
Worrying how the story ends
I let go and I let God
Let God have His way
That’s when things start happening
I’ll stop looking at back then
I let go and I’ll let God have His way”
One thing that was honestly bothering me is this marriage/dating thing! I was like, “Ok Daddy what’s up with this?! I’m 30 and you mean to tell me that there are NO prospects at all?! C’mon Daddy! Shoooot I don’t discriminate….red, brown, yellow, black, or white they are ALL pleasing in my sight!”
*Side note* Yes, you may laugh! 🙂 AND yes, this is how I talk to God. For all you people that like to say “He knows my heart”, tell Him what’s in your heart and how you feel HONESTLY!
Now back to the matter at hand…
Finally one day I was like forget it. It was that day in July, after 3 months of foolishness and dealing with a man who I KNEW what not sent by God, I let go. NO…I SERIOUSLY let go! I didn’t just let go of wanting a “relationship” or a “man” I let go of telling God my plans. I got rid of ALL of my lists and told Daddy that I wanted to live for him.
Living for Him meant a BIG change in my life…but each day became sweeter and I could see Him guiding my life and how I did things. One thing He guided is my relationships with friends. For me to call you friend it means that you are now family. So a big shout out to my GROW Group Family, Get Fresh Crew, and the newly added the Sensational Six.
So with all of that being said. My people out there…….. Let Go!!
Oh!! I almost forgot…. *giggle*
I would like to send out a thank-you to friend of mine, Mels….Thank you Mels. Daddy used you to send me something special and just for me. If I had not let go, when I did I would still be jaded. I know that the BEST is yet to come and H.S. *kisses* and ((hugs))
~Love, Peace, and SOOOOOOOOUL!!!!